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It started out with the week when Rachelle told me that Nicole was legit crying to her and telling her that she can't stand the Megarlie (wow... horrible name. LOLS) couple. I'm pretty sure I sort of blew up when she was passing the note to me and I felt a vein pop in my head. Don't misunderstand... I just feel bad that Nicole's the one suffering, when it should be CHARLIE. >:(, but noo.
The main point of me logging in this journal is for me to delete all the journal entries. I'm going to just clean out all my posts -- delete the evidence and everything. I already cleaned out my gmail and everything else. I've been wanting to do that for a long time now.
I feel bad for all the time I've spent writing it but the only way to create a new "person" to erase the past. Truthfully, reading over all the entries disgusts me..................... alot. I was on the second post before I basically vomited.
I wasn't sure how to comment on Megan's tumblr so I'll just comment here,
"And that just reminded me. What am I going to do about my D in algebra? Damn.
My response? I TOLD YOU! I TOLD YOU TO KEEP ACADEMICS AND YOUR LOVE LIFE FAR APART! It happens to most people.... example? Rohan. He's actually quite smart, but then he pays too much attention to love and he's going to grow up sinking into the lowest pits of hell.
"I wish I could start over, like this had never happened. Then I wouldn’t be broken, and I wouldn’t know what I was missing."
Sometimes, it's not a bad thing to start over again. And it's possible. (; . Use me as an example.
My writing skills are turning horrible. I need to memorize the dictionary to tweek up some words again. Ehh, I should update this journal a little bit more. ^_____^... I use my tumblr now. And yes, I think tumblr's amazing, no offense livejournal. I'm just irked by the fact that I can't keep most things on private/friends so whoever manages to come upon my tumblr will be able to read everything.
- Location:in heaven
- Mood:
happy - Music:I'll Make A Man Out Of You - Mulan OST
1. Put your iPod on shuffle
2. Press "Next" for each question
3. Use the title of the song to answer the question
4. No cheating
1. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Your Smile - The Grace
2. WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
Why - M2M
3. WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
Bad Boy - Son Dambi
4. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Luv U - Battle
5. WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
Fall - Ina
6. WHAT DO YOUR EXES THINK OF YOU?
Girls Don't Know - FT Island
7.HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
Memory - Younha
8. HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
Someday - Magic D
9. WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Darkness Eyes - DBSK
10. WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
Little Turtle - Nicholas Teo
11. ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
Love Story - Taylor Swift
12. WILL YOU BE SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE?
8282 - Davichi
13. WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?
The Love Bug - BoA
14. WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Lachata - F(x)
15. THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE:
Time after Time (Remix)
16. YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE:
Love Virus - E Ji Ah
17. HAPPY TIMES:
Mistery - B2ST
18. SAD TIMES:
Starstruck - Lady Gaga ft. Flo Rida
19. EVERY DAY:
Tourniquet - Evanescence
20. FOR TOMORROW:
Wedding Dress - TaeYang
21. FOR YOU:
Gone - MBLAQ's Thunder
22. WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
Autumn Moon over the Calm Lake
23. WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
Because of You - Afterschool
24. WHAT DO I THINK WHEN I GET UP IN THE MORNING?
Wipe the Tears - AJ
25. WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
Tell Me - Wonder Girls
26. WHAT DO YOU WANT AS A CAREER?
Crash 'n' Burn - Savage Garden
27. YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
All the Way North - Jay Chou
28. FAVOURITE PLACE?
Circus - Britney Spears
29. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Fight for Love - Elliot Yamin
30. DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Heartbreaker - G-dragon
31. WHAT DO I LIKE DOING MOST?
Ping - Clazziquai
32. SONG THAT DESCRIBES MY SCHOOL PRINCIPAL:
Whatcha Say - Jason DeRulo
33. WHAT IS MY STATE OF MIND AT THE MOMENT?
Passion - Hikaru Utada
34. HOW WILL I DIE?
Love's Shadow - Lee Seung Gi
35. THE SONG THAT YOU'LL PUT AS THE TITLE?
Breath - Breaking Benjamin
- Location:sleeping
- Mood: happy
- Music:Ping - Clazziquai
My head is whirling.
A sharp realization hit me. In this cold isolated world, I'm the only one who's alone. No matter how hard I try, there's only me. What's the point of living a fairytale when the results are only going to sadden you.
There's me. Only me. I drowned in my own blood. I hid under my own mask. I protected myself with lies.
I'm unable to breathe. Every tear I shed is worthless, yet it calms the discomfort in my chest.
There's no one in this world that understands me. Despite all my efforts, I will always be the stranger.
Save.... me.
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So, I wrote a song in my tumblr called Prince and it's kinda lame. Really cheesy and embarassing. LOLS
It was inspired by this conversation with me and JT -- and yes, we have a strictly in person relationship (nothing on the computer because both our parents thinks that it's kinda lame to have an online boyfriend, but his parents encourage him to date. Well... When I met him, he was like Mark Liu! Like, unbelievably quiet and embarassed around ppl -- heehee, I'm not really worried about tying a leash around him and claiming him as mine. :P... Even IF he's unbelievably gorgeous. He's going out with me because he wants to.)
So, I was having an annoyed night (did I tell you that he ALWAYS go on the balcony when talking to someone?) and frustrated entirely with the stress in my life -- FML. I need to bring my gpa from a 4.0 to a fricking 4.5 or else I'm going to fail out of life. And all of this happened because I was taking a walk at midnight -- he was accompanying me on the phone and refused to hang up until he heard that I was in the room safety. He called me and asks me what's wrong and I start listing random things off the top of my head about how stressed I was. Strangely, I told him to fuck off and leave me alone, but he wasn't mad AT ALL. Do you know what he freakingg said?!?! "don't worry darling, all of this will be gone tomorrow and you'll realize that you still want me no matter what." My reply? "Yes, but the kettle won't boil forever will it?" "I'll make sure to add water everytime it's gone." it's basically the kettle and water love theory that I threw at him a couple of days ago at Thanksgiving. ^^. *really happy that he remembered*. Ehhh, idk whether I think he's really sweet or if he was just being corny to freak me out.
And then he says, "you're the moon for me -- the brightest star in the sky." of course, I made fun of him because the moon wasn't a star... Is it? I'd be freakishly embarrassed if it was. Haha, our argument was complicated until I have him a virtual punch. Except, I ended up howling with laughter.
It's weird cuz the things to talk about never run out, and of course, we end up quarreling. ^___^. And of course, he was so worried that I'd get raped because I made a midnight trip to CVS to get some sleeping pills.
What inspired me the most was his last line in the conversation.
"Well, that's all before I go to bed. I love you. Night, my princess. *hangs up*"
Was he embarrassed? Cuz he hung up before I said good-bye.
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So, I admit it. I'm madly in love with JT.
It's not a joke.
I fell in love with a guy who I said that I would never like.
But do I really like him? Or do I just feel "warm" and "cuddly" inside. He's been really sweet to me, but am I sure that he likes me?
Stupid insecurities. Right now, I'm on the plane to NYC and strangely there's Internet on my mom's iPhone... But that's b/c we're not on air yet.
Fine, so I DO like him. I'll suffer the consequences of the breakup later and just let myself enjoy the moment.
But truthfully, how long will this relationship last? He tells me that I am the first girl he's liked in the 17 years of his existence, but does he really like me? Or is he playing with me?
Truthfully, I'm afraid of junior guys. They're still not mature and i'm afraid of getting hurt. Than won't happen right? Our parents know that we're dating. They also know that he likes me. Why do I feel bad inside? Why do I feel like everything will end in heartbreak in the end? I don't understand! My heart is defying me as well. I fell in love with my boyfriend. How ironic is that?! But isn't that the way it's suppose to be? Wasn't this mutual feeling suppose to be there in the beginning? Why am I scared?
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But, it's THANKSGIVING ! xD ... or overgrown plump chicken day (as my grandmother quotes). And I'm unbelievably happy -- probably the first time in a VERY long timeee .
"Sketchy plump chickens and sketchy music = sketchy makout time" quoted by JT.
Me --> ................... -twitch- . 0.o... wtf.
I have to admit that he's a sweet guy though ... a bit serious for me .
Hehehehe , @ Helen : you get what's happening ... right ? x] . I know, I know. I should use his full name , but I don't want tooo . Plus , i don't want to tell people .
I woke up this morning , and I was like , AHHHHHHHHH ! IT'S 10:00 ! Of course , I rush over to Boston to Pimple's house for piano . We barely did anything ... well , HE barely did anything . I learned like two peices and he was correcting me , but seriously ... did he HAVE to dig his head into my hair ? LOLS . If JT knew, he'd kill him . x] .
What's with my mom and trying to play cupid with me and freaky guys ? I DON'T GET IT ! Haha . Well , at least I'm happy . And no , I'm NOT using him Helen -- fine , I sorta am , but he's so sweet ! <3 <3 <3 .
Anyways , somehow I ended up in his house and we're currently cooking dinner right now . And... he's sitting across form me , staring when I write this on wordpad . -shoos him away- . Haha , we are SO SKETCHY !
Basically , our parents just let us use the kitchen and they told us to cook dinner . We started the turkey like 3 hours ago and it's still not ready yet . *sighs* ... ahahahaha . Well , I got to his house at like 3:00 , so technically , he plopped the turkey in the kitchen first .
And of course , they sketchy grinding music -- not really . It's alot of asian music and then comes the song Elevator and Cyclone . Good things his parents aren't here or they would KILL -- basically , we're home alone together . It's sorta awkward . x]... But luckily I'm a loud person , so the awkwardness dies -- besides , awkwardness is smexxiii right ?
Am I falling for him ? >________________________________< . idk ... ehhh , there are some things I can say and not say on this journal . There's too many secrets that I don't want to reveal . EHHHH .
<3 ... SO HAPPY~ JT'S quotes .
"Did you know that turkeys evolved from peacocks?"
"If you were the turkey, I would chain you to me forever." me -- WTF .
SO.
MANY.
MORE.
But... cake timee ! Well, the cake is ready . I smeared cake all over his face and took a picture ... except, he deleted it . What's this warm feeling inside ? GOSH , my face is turning bright red .
- Location:JT'S HOUSE !
- Mood: happy
- Music:Cyclone - Baby Bash
A huge phobia..................................
WHY DO GUYS LIKE RUBBING THEIR FACES IN MY HAIR?!?!?!?! WHAT'S WITH GUYS AND HAIR?! ARGH!... *is going to shave my head bald in the future*
HORRIBLE. JUST HORRIBLE.
Celebration party -- (what happened after)
Basically, we met up in Chinatown and had this celebration thing -- what we always do after something major. The guy comes and the entire night, he leaned his head on my shoulder and rubbed his face INTO MY HAIR. It was HORRIFYING.
Myles says that I'm going to get a fungus like face.
Our fb stat conversation went like this --
Jenni Ruan -- I still look like a prune. T_T
Myles Schulze
O.o
Vibhor Jesus Sharma
Jenni Ruan
So yesterday, our piano church thing had this celebration and then this guy with yellow/purple/green acne rubbed his face on my hair -- basically, I came home and soaked in the tub for like 3 hours. and now i look prune-like. ><
Myles Schulze
Wtf acne colors?? thats disgusting
and he rubbed his face on your hair b/c... pervert yes?
Vibhor Jesus Sharma
GREEN ACNE, WHAT IS THIS!?!?
Myles Schulze
I think that may have been fungus. Watch out for athletes-face
hahahahaha
Jenni Ruan
IDK -- is there even something like GREEN ACNE?!... it was disgusting. Like literally, you look at his face and there would be huge blotches of GREEN AND PURPLE (and YELLOW). ><.
GAH! During the celebration dinner thingy, he kept leaning and rubbing his face in my hair. I still feel freaking contagious -- and yes, I think he was a pervert.
Myles Schulze
Maybe hes just trying to spread the love, Jenni. Love being fungus face
Its nothing to worry about. AIDS goes away eventually, right?
Jenni Ruan
EWWW! I don't want a fungus like-face!
-shudders-... SO CREEPY. o.e.
Myles Schulze
ur gonna have things growing out of your face, btw
Helen Zhou
No quiero stds xD
Jenni Ruan
@Myles: T_________________________T....... THANKS.
I'm going to like wash my face like 3000000 times tonight. xD. -shudders-. I think he sneezed in my hair or something, but I did trim the outer layer of my hair, so I guess I'm safe? IT WAS SO CREEPY. THE ENTIRE NIGHT, HE WAS LEANING ON MY SHOULDER AND RUBBING HIS FACE IN MY HAIR. The more horrid part? My mom thought I was going out with him.
Myles Schulze
W.T.F???@??1??? he sneezes, rubs his acne, and lays eggs in your hair that will later spawn smaller fungii to eat your body. Thats gonna take more than just a shower
haha @ur mom
................. That kid just likes teasing me. *sighs*
BUT OHMYFUCKINGGODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
<3... MEGAN AND CHARLIE GOT TOGETHERRR! *SQUEALLLLLLLLLLLL*
As I predicted, *cough*. SEE? Now you HAVE to acknowledge me as a good cupid now. xD
- Location:on top of Myles's Head
- Mood:
I DON'T WANT FUNGUS ON MY FACE - Music:Last Farewell - Big Bang
Dedicated to Helen...
because I love her. -grin-. Like the title, melly bear? ;D
- Location:I'm creepy -- stalking Helen
- Mood:
ily Hezzzzzy - Music:Mandark's Sparta Laugh REmix
And yes, I'm pissed because the piano thing is less than 2 hours, I have to get dressed and make sure that I can PLAY that peice in front of ALL THE TEACHERS (have them FUCKING GRADE US) and embarrass myself. Thanks asshole (He has a real name, but I don't want to use it since I'm so mad at him). Actually, he's such an idiot that he doesn't deserve a name. It's the pairing that's really pissing me off. Apparently, they put "good players" (aka me, though my confidence is deteriorating pretty quickly now that I listen to myself place) with bad players (aka him). I mean, seriously! What's the point of signing up for a duo piano workshop when you don't WANT to play piano? Apparently, he says he hates it -- and I was like, "why the fuck are you in this class? Why the fuck am I paired with you? Why the fuck won't you just try this once?"... I pissed him off... and now he refuses to play piano nicely -- this is WHY JENNI, that you need to be NICE to everyone, including idiots and assholes.
I still haven't showed my mohter my report card. I told her about the dropping thing and she said she didn't care, but she kinda scares me now, so I'm going to stay on her REALLY GOOD SIDE, but it won't be long before she finds out. .__________________________. ... And I'll be grounded -- and yes, I still need to review my 1- 42 Latin cuz I'm sorta failing her class!
I'm pissed off... My nanowrimo story is going slower than I thought -- the thing is, if I can have that chance to create a realistic and useable plotline and WRITE it REALLY well, I'll have the chance of finding an actual publishing company and ACTUALLY publishing it! :D... So excited~. <3 ... at least I get an opportunity for it to be revealed to the world! EEEEEEEEEEEEK. Which is why I really don't care about life anymore -- hmmm, maybe I'll write a REALLY good book... like HARRY POTTER! *dreams*. LMAO, jk.
Haha, talking about NanoWrimo, I'm going to make this short -- cuz I sorta need to get ready for tonight's performance which I'm going to FAIL. FML... FML. FML. FML. FUCKMYLIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
kbye. Go wet your pants, darlinq. xD... LMAO, jkjkjkjk. *inside joke b/w me and Helen... as usual*
- Location:xD
- Mood:
MWHAHAHA, no. - Music:Tap Tap REVENGE
Okay...
So yeah, Charlie (I seriously doubt you EVER read my lj, which is why MEGAN -- *wink* -- will tell you how apologestic -- is that even a word -- I am). I'm dedicating this journal entry to say SORRY. *plays Sorry Sorry by Super Junior*...
I didn't ... quite mean that....................................
Kay yeah, and good luck on NaNoWriMo. My current total number of words STILL beat yours. HAHA.
- Location:a hairball
- Mood:
i'm a GOOD person! - Music:Mr. Doctor (ignore the lyricss) - Epik High
unbelievably upset.
It's true. I AM REALLY MAD AT MYSELF. SCREW GRADES. GODDAMIT! All my "good" grades went onto SECOND term, leaving first term with only the things I failed -- asian failed and legit failed. fuckmylife. I'm dropping history... I SERIOUSLY GODDAMNIT........... ARGH!
Hultgren hates me. She gave me a C for the term (WTF)....................... >_________<. I REALLY HATE HER! ARGH! WHY ISN'T THERE AN SP LATIN?! I WOULD DEFINITELY TAKE CP OR SP LATIN... GAH! *hates her*. SHE.IS.SUCH.A.BITCH.
And the thing is, SHE DOESN'T SCALE THE GRADES! x(. Maddox scales the grades (and I still fail)... FML. FUCKMYLIFE. I HATE SCHOOL -- I WISH I CAN DROP OUT AND BECOME A REALLY PRETTY RICH MODEL (never going to come true). Actually, no. I just want to live in a pretty house in PEACE without having stress, because a certain amount of stress will decrease a person's life spam at least 5 years. :(... THEREFORE, SCHOOL IS JUST A WAY FOR PEOPLE TO LIVE SHORTER.
Fine, I'm turning "weird" but I'm going to be MURDERED TONIGHT! How can I EVER show my mom the grades?! How can I ever have the FACE TO SHOW HER MY GRADES?! AHHHHHHH. Me, who never failed a thing in my lifetime, failed like all my subjects. And no, there are no Fs on my report card.
WHY
COULDN'T
I
BE
BORN
A
SMART
PERSON?!
*needs to steal someone's brains*. I'm not kidding, I really needs to steal the brain of someone like Paul Moy or like Michael Ren -- LIFE.IS.SO.UNFAIR.
My IQ is high enough to be CLOSE to a genius... WHY ISN'T MY BRAIN SMART ENOUGH?! Oh, because I corrupt my brain with hot asian celebrities and stalking people. Therefore, I'm an idiot and I deserve to fail into the deepest pits of hell.
Talking about this, I actually LIKE hell. Cuz there's no sunshine in there... so anyone who I curse to hell would mean, 'go to heaven and leave my place of darkness. Oh, and take your shiny brightness with you before you decide to blind my eyes.' Sorta like that... MY MOM'S GOING TO HATE ME FOR LIFE. AHHHHHHHH.
And you know what else bothers me? The subject I "try" (but not really try... more like, just stare at the paper and sleep) the hardest are the subjects I do the most poorly in. >_____________< Like, I LITERALLY BLANK OUT the moment I get the test. ARGH! Okay, those are just excuses...... I probably COULD get an A in history if I actually decided to study, but seriously... what's the point of honors history when they're not even going to LOOK at your high school resume when you apply for graduate high school. *scoff*. I think that's really stupid, which is why I was like, "fuck it. I'm just going to fail high school and then apply for Pharmacy school." I MEAN, SERIOUSLY. A girl with a fricking 1.8 GPA got into Boston College of Pharmacy.... so what's the point of me trying right now (lmao). And yes, my expectations have dropped -- I mean, ivy league for undergraduate? Thanks, but I don't want to have premature white hair and I want something called a L-I-F-E... Plus, pharmacy pays alot too... like 180,000$ - 200,000$ a year depending on where you work at? XD. I know, I know... why did I suddenly mention college? Because I planned everything out. 5 years at Boston College of Pharmacy to get my PhD, and then applying for graduate school for law. BUT SERIOUSLY, WTF. WHAT'S THE POINT OF SPENDING 5 FRICKING YEARS IN GETTING A PHD when I DON'T EVEN NEED IT?! Well, patent lawyers only work with paperwork. T_________T... But, I guess it's good to have a backup job (if my lawyer skills fail, I can always become a pharmacist... ahahaa).
*sighs*. I think I just gave up in life -- but I'm not going to go to medical school : thanks, but no thanks. *sighs some more*. Well, I have so many backup jobs. Piano teacher, pharmacist, artist, writer... idk. This is boring people.
Now, I just need to finish my homework, and HIDE MY REPORT CARD. My mom's going to kill me. She's going to disown me. She's.... going to hate me for life. IDK ANYMORE! I DON'T WANT TO KNOW. *siings*. NOT INTERESTED. HAAAAAAA.
And I still like to avoid. My counselor was like, "you avoid alot... but you're avoiding to protect yourself." and I was like,"yeahhh." cuz I didn't look at my report card... I'm just going by my instincts that I "failed" all my classes. My instinct tells me that I failed........ so I should've failed.
- Location:in life
- Mood:
distressed - Music:Passion Generation - HinT
I SHOULD CREATE A WRITE-IN for NaNoWriMo in ACTON! xD... Except......................... how in the HELL am I suppose to get THAT together?! O_o.
Okay, random thought. I'm going to go write now since I'm so FUCKING BEHIND. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
- Mood:
calm - Music:Pabo Sarang (Foolish Love) - Lee Junki
WHY?!
MY MOM'S GOING TO FRICKING FUCKING FRICKING SHARE A ROOM WITH ME! AHHHHHHHHH. *DIES*....
That's R-E-A-L-L-Y bad... Should I consider moving up into the attic? I want to. T.T... WHAT'S WITH MY LIFE?! SO MUCH CHAOS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
- Location:DISSOLVED
- Mood:
grumpy - Music:Sparta
If Friday lands on the thirteenth, then it's definitely cursed.
I BELIEVE IT. I SWEAR TO GOD, TODAY IS SO FUCKING CURSED IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY.
So I wake up and I accidentally knock my glasses into the trashcan. Me being nearly blind searched my entire room for nearly an hour before realizing, OH! It's in the TRASHCAN. T.T
Then I go to school and I look + feel like crap for the entire day.
I legit failed my history test. Like, LEGIT F-. LIKE FAIL. FAIL! CAN FUCKING BELIEVE IT?! IT'S ONE OF MY FIRST TIMES EVER FAILING ANYTHING IN MY LIFE. FML... I'M SO FUCKED. IF MY MOM FINDS OUT... I SWEAR TO GOD, I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE A FUCKING HEAD. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I failed it... LEGIT. I FAILED A TEST. I FAILED IT. OHMYGOD. I'M NEVER GOING TO FORGIVE MYSELF. I FAILED.... I FRICKING FAILED. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.
And then I run into a door and stub my toe in the counseling center...
Before going into English and totally having a sex education talk. So we were talking about the Scarlet Letter and this dude was like, "If she's a married woman and he's a priest, then where would they have sex?" It was SO AWKWARD, cuz our entire class started discussing places they could possibly sleep with each other. It was like, "the woods... obviously they could get naked and sex up on a tree." Me: WTF.
And then he goes like, "Is it because she felt sexually aroused and her husband was depriving her of sex, so lust?" We had this heated discussing about whether Prynne and Chillingsworth ever had sex. T_______________________________________
ANYWAYS, I come home and I am UNABLE to move my shoulder -- I have a stiff shoulder and piano practice with that fuckhead tonight (FML). T_T... I can't play properly because I can't move my right hand too fast or else my neck is going to tighten.
Oh, and I started raining. Isn't that great? I had a cramp literally the entire morning.
FML... FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH IS A BITCH.
AND, the VIKII videos DIED on me. I COULDN'T WATCH YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL or ANYTHING. ARGH... My life sucks. *sighs*
On top of all that, my grandma starts discussing how lucky her sister in law was cuz they married into a rich family. Her idea? To sell me off to a rich family. T_T... OKAY, SERIOUSLY. WTF. YOU'VE SEEN THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME (AN AVERAGE POOR COMMONER) AND MY FATHER (THIS STUPID RICH ASSHOLE). WE DON'T MATCH! I HATE RICH PEOPLE! GAHHHHHHHHHH. FUCKHEAD... SERIOUSLY FUCKHEADS.
Really, really, really pissed right now.
oh, and I want to kill someone. . PLEASE AND THANKS.
- Location:BITCH, DIE.
- Mood:
cranky - Music:"You had a baddd dayyy."
YAYYY! I finally figured out the PERFECT idea for a story for NANOWRIMO! XD YESSSSSS! *is very excited to write it*. I don't think I'm going to sleep tonight. *excitement*
- Location:in your hearttt
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Bad Boy - Son Dambi
OMFG, I just had the AWKWARDEST morning in the world. Like, seriously. So, my grandma comes into my room and starts having this "sex" talk with me and I was like, wtf. And I was ASLEEP still in my bizarre dream about drinking blood (... probably a similar dream Yun had...). Then I heard stuff like, 'don't sleep with random guys you pick off the streets.' and I started twitching in my sleep. SO SCARY. *tries not to remember*... I was literally like, omfg ~ why in the HELL are you telling me these things?!
My bizzare dream: So, it starts out on a nice sunshiney day and I was skipping in the woods when this guy came up to me and basically bit me. I started to transform into a vampire and melted in the sunlight. But then night came and I was resurrected before going to "hunt" people. And it was scary cuz I bit all my friends! LIKE, LITERALLY. GAHHHHHHHHHHH. *is very creeped out*. And yes, these are the rare days when I creep myself out. *shudders*... I am very blunt on the description because I don't think it's appropriate for minors (ahahahahaha, jk)
But yeah, that's all... I think. cuz I need to study for a fricking history quiz that I don't want to study for and finish my homework. AISH... Oh, and I saw Maddox at Our Town! xD... It's reallyyyy fun stalking teachers (not really).
ahahaha, and Megan... I found this awesome song to fit your mood. ;P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyzOHC-W
It's You - Super Junior (English and Girly version)
Neorago neorago neorago
I dont need nobody but you, you are the one I want
Even if you ask me again, Its only you I want
Even if you might have someone else in your heart
I cannot forget you, I knew it right from the start oh
From the moment that I caught you with my eyes
From the moment that you got me by surprise
Ill chose you any day without no regrets
Its only you I want
Oh I dont care what anyone might say
You are the only one for me
No matter if they chase me away,
You are the one I need
If I had a choice, it will still be only you for me
Tic toc, tic toc
Even as time goes by, oh I
Want to tell you that I love you a hundred times and more
Your kiss your smile your touch I love it and that I know for sure
That when the stars fall down I will catch the brightest one for you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
I dont need no words to describe, this feeling I have for you
Even if you say its too late, Ill still say I love you
I know this love is wrong But I just cant give up,
Youre the one that I want and I cant just let go o oh
My heart it yearns for no one else but you
If you dont reply, my heart will still wait for you
You are the one that keeps this heart of mine beats
Its only you I want
(Chorus)
I want you I need you its you
(Why dont you know its only you)
I want you I need you its you OH
- Location:perched on a branch
- Mood:
don't kill me Megan! - Music:Let Me Hear Your Voice - Big Bang
Megan,
GET TOGETHER WITH CHARLIE ALREADY.
Idiot... T_T... BOTH.OF.YOU.ARE.IDIOTS.
Charlie, if you're reading this – I punched you on movie night because of this reason. Now, figure out what Megan wants, ask her, and be happy!
kbye … -is going to leave before two monsters come after me-
~ suicidal_d3vil
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Wow, I haven't updated FOREVER. -sketchy cough-... Things happen? I feel sketchy just writing in this livejournal now because people can read it. o_o. ANYWAYS, YAYYYYYY! I HAVE 10,000 WORDS FOR NANOWRIMO ALREADY! xD...
So basically, I'll reveal the story when I'm done because everything is a secret. Actually, no – Megan should know what the story is about already since I am basing it off of 'reality'. -cough- -cough-... It's a very sketchy thing that I explained in my other livejournal (Kristy, Heidi, and Helen... you know it. Now don't say anything). Yes, I really DO want to lecture both of them, but that's they're own problem. X]... I get to council Nicole tomorrow. -is excited-. Actually, no. We're creating amazing plans that involve the two of you, so HA.
I'm actually pretty excited for this year's writing month because I created TWO accounts and I'm going to write a total of 100,000 words by the end of this month. YAY~~~~.
I'm amazing calm right now. O________o. Though I had like, 30000000 pounds of sugar and I'm going to become a pig. -laughs-.
Oh, did I mention that I scare Sam? I do it on purpose cuz he annoys me... a lot. That kid doesn't even know me and he runs away from me. T___________T. Therefore, I'll be an annoying loud bitch whenever I see him. HMPHHH, I DON'T LIKE YOU EITHER. HMPHHHHHHH, MANBITCH. -acts childish-.
Why am I so RANDOM today? Oh, maybe because I'm pissed off and happy at the same time. Really pissed off because of a CERTAIN PERSON WHO I WILL NOT NAME BECAUSE I'M SO MAD AT HIM... but really happy. GAH! I'm a weirdo. It's a reassuring thought for me to know that my life is perfect, but not really. I think it's the anti-depressants that are making me turn a bit crazy. o.e....
Now Megan, I think you should be a good girl and admit your own feelings. And then our lives will all be <3 and everything will be happy again (okay, so maybe that's the 'fairytale' version, but -twitch-. Don't you think it's kinda obvious? I do too. Now just say yes and everything will be okay... Oh, and can I slap both of you? Cuz both of you are being idiots. Please and thanks)
Yupp, that's it. I'll update when I finish writing my memoir and study.
- Location:stalking YOU
- Mood:
accomplished - Music:Death On Two Legs - Queen
Right now... I'm coughing like crazy. And cursing certain people. *sniffles*. MEGAN *glare*. I'm shooting my mega-glare at you right now. Actually, I'm pretending that my orange and purple turtle is you -- right now, it's turning into a puddle of water from my glare.
YAY! I feel so proud of myself right now because a) I managed to hack into powerschool -- with the password... and checking upon people's schedules.
and b) because... I learned how to play Tong Hua! (YAY TESSY!). And yes, Megan... it's time for you to learn the song. ;). Not to sound sketchy or anything. So happy~~~.
But, I'm pissed too. I don't want to do any US History homework even though I'm like, failing her class. And because my mom came home before I wanted her to. >:x . That's never good. I was going to the phonathon with Helen, but now I'm stuck in the realms of this house ... again. FML. Oh, and my history test is this week and my Chemistry test is tomorrow. I'm SCREWED. *sings*.
Oh, and did I tell you about how much I hate all Starbursts except for the pink ones? Ick. The orange ones are OKAY, but I like the pink ones the best. x].
Why am I being so random?! O___________o. Oh yeah, me and Helen's perverted jokes.
Helen: I'm going to get swine flu. AND DIE.
Me: Suck it up. I'll organize your funeral... and buy you a pretty dress.
Helen: *creepy tone* I'm gonna buy you a dress, so I could put it on you.
Me: O___________________________o. WTF. You pervert.
Me: I'm gonna devote all my time to watching
[at the same time]
Helen: porn
Me: You're Beautiful -- the drama with HONGKII~~~. [a moment later]....... *twitch*.
Yup Helen, I'm doing this to officially destroy your innocent girl image. *cough*.... Oh yeah. Are you stay giving birth? :P. Considering that you were born pregnant? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA . Oh yeah, HELEN~~~. Did you know that you can download Mandark's laugh Sparta remix? LMAO. I have it on replay. xD
Okay, my creepy moment is over. Oh, and Helen. Alex Li's cellphone number --> 617-633-6097. Happy stalking! xD
I should finish history now! *grin*
- Location:sitting on Hades
- Mood:
complacent - Music:Mandark's Laugh (Sparta Remix)
I'm so paranoid that someone's going to find my other livejournal. FMLFMLFML. or figure out who the owner of that livejournal is. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Okay. Done ranting. :)
I still hate my life. Stupid homework. Stupid swine flu. Did I mention that I got checked? I have Swine Flu. I had swine flu the entire week and I still came to school.
I MUST COMPLETE MY HOMEWORK. MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. EATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT HAIRRR. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
Ken's my new mommy! YAY! *is doing this to annoy him*. MWHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA.
Weird mood... more like, the "gimme bitch... AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA" moood. I scare myself. XD
- Location:nerd world
- Mood:
nerdy - Music:Gimme More - Britney Spears
When will our two worlds stop clashing?
- Location:in the clouds
- Mood:
blank - Music:Oh Yeah - MBLAQ
